It just feels right...

You know when you have that feeling that you have made the right decision, you don't second guess yourself - but you feel anxious and slightly nervous that you might be mistaken about something important? You dwell on it a little and wonder if the decision you have made, which impacts on your life in a big way, is right?

Well now - up until Monday morning, I felt like that - holding my breath, scared I had made the wrong decision - but I hadn't :) - I exhaled, my shoulders dropped, my anxiety lessened - I suddenly saw a much bigger picture... this might sound trite, but ...

I honestly believe I was born to be a Social worker. This fits me like a glove, I feel so comfortable - so content even on placement. The work is me. The style is me. I like the "profession" feel about it. I've never worked in any profession before and it just feels right. And then I remembered back to last year and I remember feeling even more nervous, but I remember walking in and feeling like I had come home. It is such a strong feeling, perhaps it is so pronounced because I have had so many other jobs where I just did the work, but didn't love it and didn't feel like it had much purpose to it if you know what I mean?

I don't even consider the fact that all this placement is unpaid. I love getting on the train with the thousands of others at 7.30 and watching the world go by on my way to work while I listen to very bad 1980's music.

I'm actually feeling so satisfied with myself, the study is almost over, this is what I have been working towards and this placement feels like a reward to me. I'm excited by the future and I'm even more convinced that I can see myself working in a hospital.

Last essay due tomorrow. Then only 13,000 words to go, and all - ALL will be done*.

Children are coping well with me being away. Truthfully, I don't think they really care. After all, their nanna will be looking after them on the days that they aren't in Kinder/child care and she spoils them very much so, they'll be very happy indeed.

Oh and finally before I go to finish up my last essay - I'm getting so many compliments on my wardrobe...and all of it, even the shoes, have come from savers!

ps - I'm also aware that I am only 3 days in and I could still be in the "honeymoon phase". I doubt it, but I reserve the right to reverse my pledgings of love etc if I need to ;) .


*Can someone please shoot me if I start talking about Masters or higher..my fieldwork supervisor was talking about her masters degree and my thesis supervisor keeps mentioning future research for me....